Lines across

All It took to make my day feel awsome, was a few lines in my inbox

Cleaning The Soul

Today has been a cleaning and whatever day.
my apartment looks so nice.

 

 Love it so much, candle light all around shinnning so nicely.

In the Middle Of The Storm

I meet my favoritt person today, My sweet bestfriend.
I awoke startled by my cellphone, screaming at me the lyrics from Trollhammaren.

Still in a bit of a sleephaze, I looked at my phone and saw it was my bestfriend.
she had just finished her meeting downtown.

I jumped in the shower, fixed myself up, in the best way i could cos my hair is stupid since its grown so long recently, and threw my self out the door.

On the way back to her place we picked up some chinese food nomnomnom i love chinese.
but to our surprise most of the sauce had leaked out into the bag, seriously sauce in a bag hah.

Rest of the day we mostly talked bout this and that. i've really missed that.
We talked bout all the silliness and crazy stuff we have done through the 10 years that we've known each other.
So much laughter in one evening.

It was an awsome day/night.

I came home not so long ago, around 4ish, too much of a storm to walk home so i jumped in a cab.

Thanks for an awsome day sweetie, love you lots 

I Have A Gift For You

I have a gift for you.
A single black rose
To show you my black love.
 
A single rose,
As tainted as my soul,
And a single dark feather,
A token of my desire.
 
Do not scorn me,
My dearest,
Come close.
 
Prick thy finger
And give a drop of blood,
Sustenance for an angel
Condemned to walk the Long Road.
 
A black rose-
A token of my forbidden love for you
And the symbol of my damnation,
And my fall from Grace...

(Image by Ketmara)

Val through the Ages

just for shits and giggles click it to see the big picture X3

In my Favorit paradise

I spent the weekend at our cabin, i love being there. so nice.

 It's so wonderful, the clear water, the  sound of the birds in the trees. I don't think there's a place that I feel so at peace like I do there.

Even though i almost ended up in a fight with my aunt at several ocations.

I got a few fish but thats not what its all bout tbh. just getting away for a bit and just, relax.

Im still redheaded and im still a freak.

but I hope the chicks will dig me none the less*whink*

~LV~

Qoute of the day

"If shes amazing, she wont be easy. If shes easy, she wont be amazing. If shes worth it, you wont give up. If you give up, you're not worthy"

Stuck In A Loop Hole

Im stuck in this repeating loop, no sleep no sleep and if i do sleep its not until morning.
What the hell is wrong with me??


I Need to sleep...it feels like its tearing my brain inside out....

Those words are haunting my mind....

I am Me, and who dares to bother can give a shit

I'm sitting here thinking bout what I told myself 7 months ago, the beginning of this year.
I Promised myself this would be the best year of my life.
But to be honest, it has been nothing but disappointments after disapointments really.

I try to give a 120% in everything I Do,
Just shit appearing in the middle sometimes that makes it a bit worse to reach ones goals.

I'm Happy in the ways I can be happy, though I do feel like something is missing in my life.
I Don't mind being on my own, I Got good friends to rely on. Friends I know will always back me up no matter what happens in this life.
But Friends are not lovers or girlfriends.
A friend can not crawl up to you in the middle of the night and whisper ever so softly that they love you.

I Long for love and passion, Someone that makes my soul shine.

Sometimes I do think i've lost that chance of true happiness.

Yet again, I Don't want to risk myself anymore, we all know how that went when I Allowed myself to open up to someone.
Maybe It was too soon, maybe she wasnt right.
Could be allot of things.

For now I am enjoying the singel life. New apartment.
Feels like the start of a whole new life doesnt it?

Live, as every day was the last, we don't know what tomorrow brings.
And let the ones you love, know, cos it might be too late

Most swiftly sweet rain

It's raining today, feels nice for a change. Everything has been so hot recently.
Atm I'm waiting for my mom to come pick me up, my brother is gonna stay with me for a few days...hurray....no not really....
but oh well.

Getting the TV as well though all my DvD's are still at my other brothers place u_u who knows when ill get those back.

I hate to wait......

Anyhow today is gonna be a busy Aion day, grind grind grind for the gold gear.
A close friend told me last night i needed a 12 step program...i might actually.

Anyhow i'll be back later X3

~LV~

AWMAHGAWD!

Yea well So I Did it, finally reach top cap and the chill can now start.
First thing that came to mind was, shit....what am I gonna do now until 2.0?
I got enough to do tbh. but meh i dont want to u___u

Anyhow, today I'm placing the last things in their spots, omg cos my bro is coming tomorrow and i know how my mom is. she would freak.
I hate moving...and I hate cleaning....And I hate having to go outside for a smoke u__u saaad puppy


~LV~

Insane In The Brain

I don't really care if you read this or not,I seriously couldn't care less. I know you read my blog, why really doesnt make sense but meh.

Really want to go into which person has issues? Yes please lets.
I can be a big enough person and say, Yea I do have some issues.

But If I were you, I wouldn't talk too fucking much bout it.

I got my personal Issues, I don't say I'm perfect. I have my flaws like every fucking other person on this planet.
And who the hell are you to even OPEN your mouth about such things?

Oh yea so you've experienced shit, well does that give you every right to stand and scream at people cos you cant talk normal? That you think screaming will make you get your point across?

Shit...

Yea I might have Issues and problems, but ya know what, It's girls like you that has fucking made me this way.

I can say that I'm fucked up.
Can you?

Every fucking person on this planet has issues in one way or the other.
Lesbians more than others. Being one you should fucking know.

If I were you, I'd get my act straight, think bout wtf your doing in your life.
Maybe the problem isnt with everyone else.

Yea I'm fucked up, but atleast I won't end up alone with the only thing to rely on in this world is my friend.

My heart is warm and yours is cold.

Dry your eyes mate

My Beating Heart

So I met her today, didn't really think I'd react like I Did.

From the moment she pulled up in her car, It felt like a shovel Hit me in the face.
I haven't seen or talked to Sepphire since march.

I'm kinda speechless at the moment so to say, I didn't think I'd react to seeing her at all.

But there she stood, the person who were once my brown eyed gothic princess.

My heart dropped,so much stirred up inside me.

Sepphire....

How can she hold so much power over me still after all this time?

We talked for a bit, bout this and that. she had her friend with her. not that i did mind.
It wasn't her i was looking at anyway.

She collected her things and I walked em to her car.

How could I ever let that slip away from me?

We talked for a bit more by the car before it was time for them to go. I know where shes going, but I didnt really care at the time.

As we said our goodbyes, I walked away,hearing the voice of her friend, "Whats the matter? Are you sad?"
Had our meeting effected her in a way to?

I don't know thats just the words i heard as I walked away.

I'm left with an empty and strange feeling inside me.

Sepphire...who could ever take your place?

You've brought forth allot of memories and feelings in me today.

Feelings I thought was long passed gone. There will always be a part of me that will love you and cheerish you to the day I die.

In my heart you will always be my girl.

Thank you for showing me what love truly is all bout.
Thank you for the years we spent together.
I'm grateful.
Atleast now I do know, how it feels to love and be loved back.

Thanks for Everything

Spread Your Wings And Fly

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
today is the day.
Meh i woke up at 9 this morning.
Started off with txting with sepp, she sure has some guts asking for this and that.
She actually doesnt deserve anything since shes the one that left imo.
But we'll talk bout it tomorrow, im meeting here around 12:30 ish.
Hurray....
Oh screw her.

Now im gonna pack my computer and head down to my apartment.

I'll be back once everything is fixed.

~LV~

How many times will I start my life over again?

Tomorrow will be the first night in my new apartment, really really looking forwards to actually being alone for a while. 
my mom keeps nagging me day out and day in. seriously fucked up in my honest opinion.
Tomorrow we will put everything in its place, and when im done, im gonna lean back, put on my headphone and enjoy every second of it.
atleast I succed in one area of life. i'm always lucky when it comes to apartments and junk, love on the other hand, not so much hah, but im in no rush. now i will enjoy life to its fullest.

And Im terribly in love with this summer. Love love love.
it's wonderful,i'm feeling as if im becoming my old self again.

Life is good

~LV~

Rofl Lmao?

I'm not normally the person to post horrible pictures of myself on the interwebz hah,

but to my huge amusment, my brother sent me a few pictures from my mom's computer.

And I can only say, I had a good laugh tbh.

they were all so bad. and i look horrible, but thats mostly cos i'm asleep im sure hah.

but it amused me hah. i don't care if sepphire's in the picture XD cos that just adds up to how stupid it looks!
Worst picture Ever! ROFL!

first and last time i'm posting a bad picture of me hah.

Other than that...I Got Ze apartment happy happy joy joy 

~LV~

Slapped in the back by an ancient memory

I woke up earlier today, proberly around 9 i think it was, by my cat thinking apperently i could be used as a bouncing ball.couldnt sleep anymore up there, too hot and too much going on tbh.
So I went downstairs,curled up on the couch while I watched some biblic stuff on national geographics.

I woke up not long ago, checked my cellphone, to my surprise the display blinked a familiar name, "Sepphire"
Think my heart paused there for a second.
Why I think why is she popping up all over the place recently?
The weirdest thing is that, I Was dreaming bout it just before I woke up, that she had written me a txt message to my phone, writing that she missed me.
This is fucking weird in my opinion. is something trying to tell me something?
I donno, atm I'm too tired to wrap my head around it.
Proberly putting too much into it tbh.
I hope that I get the apartment today, i dont really wanna run around all over and grab stuff for her.

So now i'm gonna go upstairs, wake up my brother and find something to do.
I'll be back later today to blog how it goes with the apartment.
My head is in too much thoughts atm.

~LV~

For Real? Could You Spend Anymore Money?

I suddenly realised i had 13k on my bankaccount, where the hell that cash came from, i have no idea.
but I ended up using 2k of em on clothing and other accecories.

I know my mom will totally freak, but I don't actually buy myself so much tbh.
I really don't have much to blog about today.

I did have a really really weird dream though  but I don't really wanna go into details concerning it.
I'll proberly blog again a bit later

~LV~

My Own Inferno

Ah Yea so i've been a busy weekend to be honest.
Cleaning ,partying, BBQ'ing yea you name it.
I'm gonna post some pics, proberly with be mostly me but hey thats how it goes.

Anyhow,
I got a hold of Sepphire, shes coming on the 2.july.
Yea thats going to get intresting. Havent heard anything from that chick in ages.
She told me we could remain friends,works for me but still weird I suppose,
I know how she feels bout X's lol.
So i guess i'll gather together her stuff, shes not getting the tv,xbox, or any of those things. we both payed for those after all and she was the one that left.
She can have her clothing and the computer that doesnt work.
Might sound a bit bitchy but yea well thats how it goes.

Anyhow,
Last night i spent with my bestfriend.
BBQ and beer in the sun, it was truly wonderful.
I  really do feel that life is good these days.
Just nice chilling, relaxing and just look at life you know.
We're good at that.
Flaming almost up her whole yard. hah.

I spent the night there cos suddenly it was 3 at night and  I didn't really wanna go home on my own.
So this morning i woke up, meet my mom, went to the apartment, washed and cleaned some more.
Cursed at my stupid landlord hah yea cos he's an idiot.
And now i'm back at my mom's, today i think i will just chill and play some aion.
I did have a little nap but I woke up by the cat jumping on me.
Silly cat.

So anyhow here's the pictures I promised

My mom's red cat suddenly getting playful heh

Mommy's cute little boy

Tipsy in the sun, ahh I love the summer

Looks like i have a mohawk but i don't lol

More of my awsome hair hah

Pretty Flower in my bestfriend's yard.

anomnomnom Amstel, such an awsome beer. expensive though.

Holy shit its on fire!!

MMMMMMM! look at all that nice meat. I'd never....EVER Go vegan.

I Adore my hair so much ahhhh even if i do look like a huge ass dyke haha

TOMATOS! and cucumber. i kinda forgot the name hah

Last one I stole of my bestfriends blog, but i know she doesnt mind,love love love.

~LV~

What Used To Be My Home

It's kinda offical now, my apartment is so to say no longer mine.
I just have a few more things to do before I'm completly moved out.
Just have to wash the walls,cupboards and the ceiling, not in the line ofcourse.

I donno if I'm moving in with my bro or not now, my mom and stepdad found me an apartment not far from here.
I donno I'm gonna look at it this following week I hope, and we'll see.

So until then, I'm staying with my mom, Which I hate mind you.
Suddenly I don't have the freedom I'm used to have.
Suddenly allot of people to relate to.
I havent had people so close since Sepphire lived with me.

And yet again, ya know she's there to stir things up in my head.

The room in which I'm staying, brings back allot.
We spent our first night's there together as a couple.
Even if the room didn't have a door,
It didn't really matter.
Too Deep in love for anything else to matter.

In this house, was the place I first propose to her, to be my wife.
I remember that night, Even if we had a few that night,
The words were still true.
I did think she'd be my wife one day.

Then I got the apartment...
Sepphire came to visit that day that I was moving in.
She stayed behind,helping my mom hang up the curtains, put clothing into the shelves, etc.
She was so proud of herself, wanting to show me what she had done.
I couldn't help myself but smile, such small things we take for granted,
Was such a big deal to her.
We were finally alone that evening, for a first time since my birthday in February.
That apartment holds allot of memories of the life we shared together. the joy and the laughter.

She also propose to me in that apartment, for my birthday the year after.
I remember crying, i was so happy.
All my dreams seemed to come true.

I remember so many times, waiting for her to come, cooking in the kitchen, waiting for her car to pull into the drive way with metal blasting out of the speakers, unlocking the door into the apartment, and embracing me ever so tightly.

I will remember that place, with lots of fond good memories.
That perfect love will live forever in my mind and heart.

Restless

Ive fucked up my sleeping pattern again,
wtf is keeping me awake?

It's my head,
I know it.
The thoughts won't go away,
Rushing through my head like demons
Hunting me in the night.

I miss being able to have someone to sleep next to,
A warm soft body against me,
Feeling their warm breath heaving softly at me.

Fingers twirling my hair between their fingers,
As soft lips touch my cheek.
While sweet words of love is whispered in my ear.

I remember smelling her perfume as I drifted off to sleep,
her arms clinging tightly on to me as if never wanting to let go.

 

Her lips,
Kissing me in her sleep,
And murmurs escaping her lips,
Saying "I love you"
Somewhere in the dark.

Her hair brushing against my face,
tickeling my nose.

I really hate sleeping alone,
guess that's why I hate  sleeping.
 

Oh well, time to rest

Live Your Life Without Any Regreets

I discovered a few days ago,
My epic box of fail.

Yes, my Box of fail,
Where I store my engagment rings,
Patetic I know.
I kinda do keep them as a remind
Of how things went wrong at some point.

3 Rings...
3 Long serious relationships.
makes me think,
Can I ever do it right?

I actually talked with my first girlfriend,
bout it a bit recently.
She told me the reasons why things had gone so
And so.
And I do agree with her.

I'm quite the different person now than
I were then.
I've grown from the unsecure girl I once were.
I'm strong now cos of things I've experience in my life.
And  the people thats been in it.
They shaped me into who I am this day,
In the good ways and in the bad ways.
And I think I have the same thing with them.

Some learned to stand strong and be proud of who you are,
Not to let oneself be knocked down by anyone.
No matter who they are.

To love,
Isn't to be weak,
Yet if we can all feel weak at the point of love.

One just need to open up ones eyes and
Take a look at the world around,
and see what is important.

Some people lock away love,
Too afraid of opening up their hearts.
Afraid of being hurt.
To live, is to being hurt.
If one never can open up ones heart,
Life sure will be lonly.

As someone who meant allot to me once said,

"No one was meant to go through life alone"

Love is what makes this world go around.
Those words stick deep to my heart.

I have my regreets
When It comes to love.
Certain Periods I know I will look back on and think,
"what If?"

Who really wants to look back and think,
"what if" To any event in their lives?

I'm posting a song on the end here,
Which struck a cord in me concerning resent events.

Faith and Arms yea yea another Aion input

Steel Rake I really like that place

Going off to war

Not always easy being the tank

Prettiest little Tank
Wow....My legion hah!

HEY THERE!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I'm flying!!!!!

When I get rich...

I got a wicked taste for stuff,
I'm waiting on money so I can order myself some stuff online.
Some of the stuff I want:

Manic Panic Hair Dye,
Since I will need to maintain my hair color.
I love Manic Panic,
Such a great hair product.
(image from manic panics homepage)

Dreadlocks,
My bestfriend agreed to style up my hair,
That sweetheart.
so i might get some of these in red and black to mix into my hair.
(Image from naughtyshadows.no)

Omg Don't get me started on this hat,
I've been drooling over it FOREVER now.
it just looks so bloody awsome

.This top is so cute,
I seriously want it.
Though its a risk ordering stuff online,
Atleast clothing.
Well I really want both of em.
I'll see how much they are when i get my cash.
(Images of hat and shirt from www.x-tra-x.de)

Last but not least,
I want snakebites.
God how long ive wanted some.
I'd want a tattoo too but,
we'll see how much cash I got when the time comes.


  ~LV~

Seriously? You got a Death Wish?

Today started with a Bang....litterally.
I woke up to the knocking on the inner door in my apartment.
I Was shocked,
The fucked up landlord had locked himself into my apartment.
After a while i got up,
Pulled up the door to the hall,
And looked at the bastard standing in my entrance door.
I glared at him and was really ticked off.

I started yelling at him,
Cos he was complaining bout the hall looking bad,
For fuck's sake,
I'm moving out!
I flipped off,
Been a while since I've been so angry.

I seriously SNAPPED!
he's not allowed to do that.

I seriously could have slapped him,
Standing there, that bald old pig.

MEH!

Anyhow...

Got an Email from Sepphire earlier today,

She wrote she might have time to pick up her belongings at the beginning of
July.
Bout Freaking time if you ask me.
She better not send someone,
Cos last time she didn't let me know and i freaked out.

Well, I freaked out cos I Didn't know who it was.

Anyhow,
Gonna be good to get rid of it.

Though it strikes me that it will be weird to see her since I haven't spoken With/Seen
Her since march.

Hah that dreeded week in Stavanger.
Gonna be good to get rid of it atleast.

I Seriously saw how much clothing she had left behind.
No wonder, she practically lived here.
 

Today, I don't really have any plans.
Gonna relax and just enjoy my day I think.
The weather ain't too nice, and I'm broke at the moment so that doesn't help much.

I've had a long talk with my friend though,
Bout our situation in life.

No wonder one gets bitter.
Seeing how everyone actually have a life,
Family,a house, kids, etc.
And what do I have?
No job, No partner,No house,
No nothing really.
You really do end up a bit bitter.
Being Gay doesn't really help the situation.
The worst part is,
I could have been married by now.
If things hadn't gotten messed up with Sepphire,
I could have been married last fall.

I mean, I'm not actually getting any younger,
Closing in on 30.
I want my life to go somewhere,
I want a person to share my life with.
Who will love me for who I am and not who
They want me to be.

I am me, Take me for who I am,
I won't change for anyone,
Love me as I am or Forget bout it.
If I change, I stop being me.

I guess I do miss the realtionship I used to have sometimes,
Though I don't mind being alone.
Just missing someone I can show my affection to,
Someone I can call in the middle of the night,
That's just happy to hear my voice.
Someone I can shower with my love.

I don't know if anyone can love me like that again.
I tried to love, and look how that went.

But everyone keeps telling me,
That it was good that I opened my eyes to the situation
Before it got too serious.
Yea and their right.
It would have been worse to actually get into it too deep,
And then realising that,
This ain't the girl I'm supposed to be with.
Better to be alone than to feel unloved and unwanted.

Well im restless, time to do something.

~LV~

Baby When You're gone

Been another long and hectic day,
I haven't slept but thats ok.

Rather get things here done.

All my pretty females are now off the wall,
it looks so empty and cold.
Really looking forwards to moving now.

 Gonna be nice living with someone again.

My mom and my brother's girlfriend came to help out with the
Packing and washing, etc.
Gotten allot of stuff done really,
I Miss the sexy bodies on my wall.
I'll see them again soon I hope.

Saw my older brother today,
ofcourse the current status as singel were brough up.

Told him as it was,
that I wasn't gonna put up with shit again.
But he comforted me with the
Fact of, Beer, summer and girls.

Though the same subject were brought up later
today, by my mom.

She asked me bout what the girl I had dated,
had said when I broke up.
Told her it wasn't really much to tell on the subject.

My mom continued,
With that, Sepphire's footsteps would be hard to follow for anyone.
And Kate Agreed from the back seat,
and how sad it was that things had turned the way it did.

I don't know why recently,
Things concerning her has been appearing around me.
People suddenly bringing her up, etc.

I half heartedly answered them that,
I didn't think I'd fall so head over heels for anyone.
I Donno, there was something completly special,
in the way she made me feel.

Missunderstand me right,
I Did fall in love with the girl I dated,

Won't write her name here out of respect for her.
But, I couldn't fall as head over heels as I would like to.
Plus all the problems from day one.
Not a good way to start off a relationship.

I'm not blaming anyone.

Guess we were just on different paths of life,
That didn't really match up.

So much for my life starting then.

No there were just to many complications.

Atleast she got something out of it....

.....A Free Tablet....


Oh well...

~LV~

My life in a box

I'm so sick of cleaning and packing down
all my belongings. feels like theres no end to it.

Blah.

It was weird,
I packed down the clothes of my x,
she never picked em up,
It was strange really,

on top of it all, alonge with the clothes,

layed a picture of us together.

Thoughts shifted through my head,
I should really get rid of those things.

I mean its been what now, 6 months?

I cant afford to send her all her shit though,
I mailed her and she said she would think bout it.
But yea she wont pick em up.

sick of having a constant reminder of what she did to me.
Sick of being reminded of the relationship we had.
Though,
It was a nice relationship,
Warm and loving.
She was ever so devoting to me,

as i were to her.

I want a relationship like that again.
a relationship where I feel complete and alive.

Some things stay in your mind forever, I suppose.

Anyway....

I got lots to do,

my mom is coming tomorrow to help me O_O

I can use the help, its too much to do on your own.

Im doing good so far though.

Time to finish.

Blogging again later

~LV~

God damn AHHHHHHHH!

Cleaning day today,
the speakers throwing out the sweet music that soots my soul.
Nothing better than blasting the music out loud
when cleaning is on your list.

Currently listening to Poets of the fall,
though i proberly shouldnt,
but i dont really care tbh.

Too much to do in so lill time,
I'm gonna be happy once this is over.
It's at times like this you realise
How much junk you got stored.

At the moment I'm cleaning the stove.
OMG how boring,
where's a sexy little maid when I need her.
actually makes me think of someone from a time
Long since passed.

 

It's gonna be nice to leave this place behind,
Got too many memories in this place.
Now I can finally leave them all behind.

So I'm hoping I Will be able to be out of this place,
Sometime this week.

Too many problems and junk concerning the guy that owns
The freaking house.

Gonna be nice to move in with my bro and his gf =D

 

This is gonna be a great summer,
I have a good feeling bout it.

Parties,Girls in barly any clothes,beer and sunshine.

Hell, I'm gonna make this the best summer ever,
I'm free,
No one to commite myself to.
And it's a pleasant thought really.

I Can't even imagen how this summer
Would have been if  I had stayed in that messed up relationship.
Not so pleasant I'm sure.
Nice to know afterwards,
That everyone around the one you dated,
Couldn't stand your face.

Am I really supposed to care?
Not really.

I Know for a fact atleast,
No more women for a loooong loong time.
I'd rather stay singel than to be with someone
who barly could show their emotions towards me.

You were right, M,
You didn't deserve me.

I better stop blogging now,
I have lots to do,
And shorter time to get there.

Btw my mom made the best comment on my break-up today.
Hah I love my mom.

~LV~

Another Nail in the coffin

So it ended,
im not really sad to be honest.

I don't really bother wasting my time on a realtionship
Thats going no where.

I don't need a Girlfriend who can't even stand up

for me when I need her.

I deserve so much better than that crap.

 to be honest.

I should have understood it was pointless when

over and over shit came up.

Feel like i've been through hell and back.

I deserve to feel special,
I deserve to feel that i am everything.

The whole situation just makes me pissed off.
rubbing in my face she's been hearing shitty rumors bout me,

that she cant even back up.

and almost all fucking day ive been getting shit from her friend.
and she claims i dont act like an adult.

Pft wonder who the adult is who cant even talk.

Ok so i told her not to talk to me,

but i got pissed off as hell when her friend came bashing on me.

fuck that.
What the fuck is the point of involving others in something that doesnt concern them?

Fuck that,
I don't need to be with someone that never makes me feel pretty.
I don't need to be put up with bout being placed in the back of the line all the time.

I don't need a fucking girlfriend that makes a scene.

her loose not mine.

I need someone that truly loves me.

i took a huge risk going into a relationship with her.

vunerable, and she knew it.

nah, I'll find that person some day,

that will worship me,

just like i do when i fall deeply in love.

Tomorrow is another day,
and I look at it with a smile on my face.

I'll find her some day

.............

I miss being the world for someone...

My head is bound around itself,
Bound in its own madness.

Who am I?
What am I doing here?

Why do i feel this way that i do?

Fuck, I can't even expect myself to
Understand my feelings.

No one cares anyway,
My thoughts and feelings,
Are dead to the world and my surrondings.

So.......

Stop the World Cos I want Off

Epic Fail @ Life

My life,
I've come to think bout it recently.

This thing they call life of which i live in.

If one can call it living.

I exist in this hopelessness that is me.
Thats not life, just existance.

Sometimes I wonder on what i've wasted my life on.

Cheap thrills that lasts for a short time.

My mind revolves around it.

Things have been on my mind recently.

Did I take a wrong turn somewhere along
The path of my so called life?

what is the purpose of my life?

How am I to accomplish the things i was put out to do?


.........

My life is on my mind allot recently...

Summer Summer Summer Time!

It's nice to see that the summer is finally here.
Warm weather, little clothes.
I love this time of year even if its a warm one.
Let the BBQ Season and all that follows come.

My mom out in the sun

ITS MOI! damn it was hot today!



Evern the cat took shelter today

My aunt lol

My little brother, well he's not so lill anymore

Was an enjoyful day

~LV~

Skipping A Beat

Its weird how you can feel empty inside
from really missing someone close.

A Longing feeling deep inside,
That almost makes you feel like your
heart is screaming.

Wanting to be in that positing, 24/7

But sorta knowing that you can't.

Head's are not meant for so many thoughts.

Now the head is tired and needs its rest.

I'll go to bed with nice thoughts.
The thoughts of that person that makes my heart skip a beat

~LV~

The New Me

Summer for me can often be so hard due to my dark hair,
SO!
I found a solution!

My gf was nice enough to help me bleech my hair down to blond and
thada!
I now look awsome XD

i has freaky hair XD

Man i love it thouh XD

i loves mah hair!!!!!!!!!!