My Beating Heart

So I met her today, didn't really think I'd react like I Did.

From the moment she pulled up in her car, It felt like a shovel Hit me in the face.
I haven't seen or talked to Sepphire since march.

I'm kinda speechless at the moment so to say, I didn't think I'd react to seeing her at all.

But there she stood, the person who were once my brown eyed gothic princess.

My heart dropped,so much stirred up inside me.

Sepphire....

How can she hold so much power over me still after all this time?

We talked for a bit, bout this and that. she had her friend with her. not that i did mind.
It wasn't her i was looking at anyway.

She collected her things and I walked em to her car.

How could I ever let that slip away from me?

We talked for a bit more by the car before it was time for them to go. I know where shes going, but I didnt really care at the time.

As we said our goodbyes, I walked away,hearing the voice of her friend, "Whats the matter? Are you sad?"
Had our meeting effected her in a way to?

I don't know thats just the words i heard as I walked away.

I'm left with an empty and strange feeling inside me.

Sepphire...who could ever take your place?

You've brought forth allot of memories and feelings in me today.

Feelings I thought was long passed gone. There will always be a part of me that will love you and cheerish you to the day I die.

In my heart you will always be my girl.

Thank you for showing me what love truly is all bout.
Thank you for the years we spent together.
I'm grateful.
Atleast now I do know, how it feels to love and be loved back.

Thanks for Everything

Spread Your Wings And Fly

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
today is the day.
Meh i woke up at 9 this morning.
Started off with txting with sepp, she sure has some guts asking for this and that.
She actually doesnt deserve anything since shes the one that left imo.
But we'll talk bout it tomorrow, im meeting here around 12:30 ish.
Hurray....
Oh screw her.

Now im gonna pack my computer and head down to my apartment.

I'll be back once everything is fixed.

~LV~

How many times will I start my life over again?

Tomorrow will be the first night in my new apartment, really really looking forwards to actually being alone for a while. 
my mom keeps nagging me day out and day in. seriously fucked up in my honest opinion.
Tomorrow we will put everything in its place, and when im done, im gonna lean back, put on my headphone and enjoy every second of it.
atleast I succed in one area of life. i'm always lucky when it comes to apartments and junk, love on the other hand, not so much hah, but im in no rush. now i will enjoy life to its fullest.

And Im terribly in love with this summer. Love love love.
it's wonderful,i'm feeling as if im becoming my old self again.

Life is good

~LV~

Rofl Lmao?

I'm not normally the person to post horrible pictures of myself on the interwebz hah,

but to my huge amusment, my brother sent me a few pictures from my mom's computer.

And I can only say, I had a good laugh tbh.

they were all so bad. and i look horrible, but thats mostly cos i'm asleep im sure hah.

but it amused me hah. i don't care if sepphire's in the picture XD cos that just adds up to how stupid it looks!
Worst picture Ever! ROFL!

first and last time i'm posting a bad picture of me hah.

Other than that...I Got Ze apartment happy happy joy joy 

~LV~

Slapped in the back by an ancient memory

I woke up earlier today, proberly around 9 i think it was, by my cat thinking apperently i could be used as a bouncing ball.couldnt sleep anymore up there, too hot and too much going on tbh.
So I went downstairs,curled up on the couch while I watched some biblic stuff on national geographics.

I woke up not long ago, checked my cellphone, to my surprise the display blinked a familiar name, "Sepphire"
Think my heart paused there for a second.
Why I think why is she popping up all over the place recently?
The weirdest thing is that, I Was dreaming bout it just before I woke up, that she had written me a txt message to my phone, writing that she missed me.
This is fucking weird in my opinion. is something trying to tell me something?
I donno, atm I'm too tired to wrap my head around it.
Proberly putting too much into it tbh.
I hope that I get the apartment today, i dont really wanna run around all over and grab stuff for her.

So now i'm gonna go upstairs, wake up my brother and find something to do.
I'll be back later today to blog how it goes with the apartment.
My head is in too much thoughts atm.

~LV~

For Real? Could You Spend Anymore Money?

I suddenly realised i had 13k on my bankaccount, where the hell that cash came from, i have no idea.
but I ended up using 2k of em on clothing and other accecories.

I know my mom will totally freak, but I don't actually buy myself so much tbh.
I really don't have much to blog about today.

I did have a really really weird dream though  but I don't really wanna go into details concerning it.
I'll proberly blog again a bit later

~LV~

My Own Inferno

Ah Yea so i've been a busy weekend to be honest.
Cleaning ,partying, BBQ'ing yea you name it.
I'm gonna post some pics, proberly with be mostly me but hey thats how it goes.

Anyhow,
I got a hold of Sepphire, shes coming on the 2.july.
Yea thats going to get intresting. Havent heard anything from that chick in ages.
She told me we could remain friends,works for me but still weird I suppose,
I know how she feels bout X's lol.
So i guess i'll gather together her stuff, shes not getting the tv,xbox, or any of those things. we both payed for those after all and she was the one that left.
She can have her clothing and the computer that doesnt work.
Might sound a bit bitchy but yea well thats how it goes.

Anyhow,
Last night i spent with my bestfriend.
BBQ and beer in the sun, it was truly wonderful.
I  really do feel that life is good these days.
Just nice chilling, relaxing and just look at life you know.
We're good at that.
Flaming almost up her whole yard. hah.

I spent the night there cos suddenly it was 3 at night and  I didn't really wanna go home on my own.
So this morning i woke up, meet my mom, went to the apartment, washed and cleaned some more.
Cursed at my stupid landlord hah yea cos he's an idiot.
And now i'm back at my mom's, today i think i will just chill and play some aion.
I did have a little nap but I woke up by the cat jumping on me.
Silly cat.

So anyhow here's the pictures I promised

My mom's red cat suddenly getting playful heh

Mommy's cute little boy

Tipsy in the sun, ahh I love the summer

Looks like i have a mohawk but i don't lol

More of my awsome hair hah

Pretty Flower in my bestfriend's yard.

anomnomnom Amstel, such an awsome beer. expensive though.

Holy shit its on fire!!

MMMMMMM! look at all that nice meat. I'd never....EVER Go vegan.

I Adore my hair so much ahhhh even if i do look like a huge ass dyke haha

TOMATOS! and cucumber. i kinda forgot the name hah

Last one I stole of my bestfriends blog, but i know she doesnt mind,love love love.

~LV~