I am Me, and who dares to bother can give a shit

I'm sitting here thinking bout what I told myself 7 months ago, the beginning of this year.
I Promised myself this would be the best year of my life.
But to be honest, it has been nothing but disappointments after disapointments really.

I try to give a 120% in everything I Do,
Just shit appearing in the middle sometimes that makes it a bit worse to reach ones goals.

I'm Happy in the ways I can be happy, though I do feel like something is missing in my life.
I Don't mind being on my own, I Got good friends to rely on. Friends I know will always back me up no matter what happens in this life.
But Friends are not lovers or girlfriends.
A friend can not crawl up to you in the middle of the night and whisper ever so softly that they love you.

I Long for love and passion, Someone that makes my soul shine.

Sometimes I do think i've lost that chance of true happiness.

Yet again, I Don't want to risk myself anymore, we all know how that went when I Allowed myself to open up to someone.
Maybe It was too soon, maybe she wasnt right.
Could be allot of things.

For now I am enjoying the singel life. New apartment.
Feels like the start of a whole new life doesnt it?

Live, as every day was the last, we don't know what tomorrow brings.
And let the ones you love, know, cos it might be too late