Myself, Seen Through The Eyes Of Me

As I sat on the bus today,
I came to think bout things in my life,
and how my life has been so far.
No one will ever tell my story like I Will ever do.

I know I'm not perfect,
far from,
I have my Flaws and errors like everyone else.

I have a temper, I won't deny.
And I do get jealouse from time to time,
But who doesnt?
I tend to get cold when cornered or treatned.

But All in all I do think I'm like everyone else.

My life has never really been easy,
Though I'm glad that in a way it havent been,
All the past scars has been there to shape the person I am today.

My history is full of scars,
a violent home,
My suicide attempts.
People that have stabbed me in the back,
And people who has torn me apart.

I've always rised from everything that has happened in my life,
Though I do assume that I can seem cold and a bit heartless for some.

I don't know,
Some things have made me just be careful in everyway.

I've had good time to reflect upon myself today,
seeing what sort of person i've turned into.

And Actually thinking bout my life as it has been so far.

I'm not exactly at the point where I'd believe I'd be at the age of 26.
No job, barly any income.
Been engaged 3 times over the past 7 years.
To be honest, thats a bit messed up.
But we never know what's around the next turn.

But I do feel that life is in the right direction,
Better than it's been in a long time really.
I don't feel like I'm struggeling with Depression anymore.
Been a while really, which I find good.
I havent even concidered a shrink anymore,
I Don't think i really need it, a while back yes,
Now, no not really.
Though there might be people that would say
My mind is messed up.

No, I'm not messed up,
My mind is just more complex than
I'd like to be honest.

I might seem dumb and ignorant,
But thats really cos most people don't understand the way I work.

I actually had allot more to write down,
It was much better when I thought this
through on the bus.
But oh well,

My thoughts,
My head,
My life.

And I like it just like that

~LV~