Yea well So I Did it, finally reach top cap and the chill can now start.
First thing that came to mind was, shit....what am I gonna do now until 2.0?
I got enough to do tbh. but meh i dont want to u___u
Anyhow, today I'm placing the last things in their spots, omg cos my bro is coming tomorrow and i know how my mom is. she would freak. I hate moving...and I hate cleaning....And I hate having to go outside for a smoke u__u saaad puppy
I don't really care if you read this or not,I seriously couldn't care less. I know you read my blog, why really doesnt make sense but meh.
Really want to go into which person has issues? Yes please lets.
I can be a big enough person and say, Yea I do have some issues.
But If I were you, I wouldn't talk too fucking much bout it.
I got my personal Issues, I don't say I'm perfect. I have my flaws like every fucking other person on this planet.
And who the hell are you to even OPEN your mouth about such things?
Oh yea so you've experienced shit, well does that give you every right to stand and scream at people cos you cant talk normal? That you think screaming will make you get your point across?
Shit...
Yea I might have Issues and problems, but ya know what, It's girls like you that has fucking made me this way.
I can say that I'm fucked up.
Can you?
Every fucking person on this planet has issues in one way or the other.
Lesbians more than others. Being one you should fucking know.
If I were you, I'd get my act straight, think bout wtf your doing in your life.
Maybe the problem isnt with everyone else.
Yea I'm fucked up, but atleast I won't end up alone with the only thing to rely on in this world is my friend.
So I met her today, didn't really think I'd react like I Did.
From the moment she pulled up in her car, It felt like a shovel Hit me in the face.
I haven't seen or talked to Sepphire since march.
I'm kinda speechless at the moment so to say, I didn't think I'd react to seeing her at all.
But there she stood, the person who were once my brown eyed gothic princess.
My heart dropped,so much stirred up inside me.
Sepphire....
How can she hold so much power over me still after all this time?
We talked for a bit, bout this and that. she had her friend with her. not that i did mind.
It wasn't her i was looking at anyway.
She collected her things and I walked em to her car.
How could I ever let that slip away from me?
We talked for a bit more by the car before it was time for them to go. I know where shes going, but I didnt really care at the time.
As we said our goodbyes, I walked away,hearing the voice of her friend, "Whats the matter? Are you sad?"
Had our meeting effected her in a way to?
I don't know thats just the words i heard as I walked away.
I'm left with an empty and strange feeling inside me.
Sepphire...who could ever take your place?
You've brought forth allot of memories and feelings in me today.
Feelings I thought was long passed gone. There will always be a part of me that will love you and cheerish you to the day I die.
In my heart you will always be my girl.
Thank you for showing me what love truly is all bout.
Thank you for the years we spent together.
I'm grateful.
Atleast now I do know, how it feels to love and be loved back.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
today is the day.
Meh i woke up at 9 this morning.
Started off with txting with sepp, she sure has some guts asking for this and that.
She actually doesnt deserve anything since shes the one that left imo.
But we'll talk bout it tomorrow, im meeting here around 12:30 ish.
Hurray....
Oh screw her.
Now im gonna pack my computer and head down to my apartment.
Tomorrow will be the first night in my new apartment, really really looking forwards to actually being alone for a while. my mom keeps nagging me day out and day in. seriously fucked up in my honest opinion.
Tomorrow we will put everything in its place, and when im done, im gonna lean back, put on my headphone and enjoy every second of it. atleast I succed in one area of life. i'm always lucky when it comes to apartments and junk, love on the other hand, not so much hah, but im in no rush. now i will enjoy life to its fullest.
And Im terribly in love with this summer. Love love love. it's wonderful,i'm feeling as if im becoming my old self again. Life is good
A messed up Queer lil girl, lost in her confussed little world where its not easy to know what is up and what is down.
The insight into her mind, where madness and insanity roam
I share my life, I share my thought,my feeling my passion,my hate and my rage. All aspects of the life with revolves around me, The good,the bad, The pain which rests inside me.
