Missing

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

My Heart,My Soul, My Everything

How To quit feeling,
How to deny oneself those feelings that's so deep
in ones heart.

If someone has the answer to fall out of love,
I'd like to know.

I can't keep going on like this,
it's pure death.

Every waking minut,
the thought of her goes through me.

I did my misakes and changed.
but it doesnt matter.

She will never love me again.

And yes my blog has turned emo,
But i need somewhere to get out my feelings

The One

Lost in this spiral,
pushing me down to the ground.

Crushing me under the weight of it's pain and misery.

She's never coming back,
She says.

And those words tear me to pieces.

All the changes I wanted to give her,
Of the person I am now.

she'd rather throw it all away,
on someone else,
Than someone that loves her more than her own life.

I can Never ever make her believe me.
This pain will be the death of me.

She could give me a chance to prove myself.
To Prove that things would be different.

But she can't,
And she won't.

We deserved to take a new start on things,
But she doesn't want to.

She'd rather throw everything away,
Than to believe my words.

I know i've acted like a bitch,
but I'm desperate,
deseperate of her love,
desperate of her touch.

Life is unfair,
when you gotta go through life alone,
without the one you love by your side,
and know you will do that until the day you die.

She will never be mine again,
No matter what I try,
No matter what I do,
It will never be good enough to convince her,
I'm the one she wants.

She is the only one,
SHE IS THE ONE.

i Waited and waited for her to come into my life,
and then she was there,
and I knew I was where i was meant to be.

But she threw it away,
I kinda understand her cos things were rough.

But she believes that things would stay that way if
we got back togehter again u_u

LoL?

"Your ex is limping around the front yard bleeding to death what do you do?
Remain calm. Reload. Aim. Shoot again..."

GAHHHHHHHHHH!

Damn talk bout ungrateful,
I know she picked up the package today,
and not even a fuckin' thank you from her.

I know she's mad at me and stuff,
But still!
it's polite to thank people when they give you stuff.
I'm actually a bit annoyed I feel.

Silent As The Grave

She's gone silent now,
Pushing me out of her life.

Don't think I'll ever hear from her again...

No one has ever acted like she has towards me before.

Just Throwing me out like i was yesterday's news.
Not caring that I once were her girlfriend.

I hate it.

How can someone so warm,
Turn into someone so ice cold?

She blames me,
Well she blames me for everything.
Proberly to make it easier on herself.

Everything else in this world means more to her,
Than me.
I have no meaning at all to her.

She says I'm a psychopat,
I beg to differ.
I'm just a Fool in love.

And she will never understand

These Tears Are All Cos Of You

Yet Another dark day,
the tears are running down my face today.

The music from my speakers ringing in my ears,
every little song reminds me of her.

I close my eyes and feel the pain in my heart,
and see her face infront of me.
How I wish that when I opened them,
she was there.

But she will never be...

She's off somewhere far away,
laying in her bed dreaming of someone else.
And she will never again think of me and smile.

Does she know these tears are just because of her,
cos of the loose in my heart.

Did she ever know how much I loved her?
How sorry I am for everything?

Did she ever know, that I never was as
happy as when I was with her?

Did she know she was the one for me?
The only one I could ever love?

Does she even know how lost i am without her?
How hard every day is cos,
I can never talk to her or see her?

Does she even know how much I'd fight for her?

How much I have changed just for her?

Yet, She doesn't wanna see me...

I'm just a distant bad memory to her,
That she proberly wish never happened.

Yet, I sometimes think and hope,
That maybe sometimes she will think of me as well.
And remember how she felt when she was in my arms,
and I kissed her forehead.

The memories let me hold on to that feeling of her,
and I wish I could go back there,
To her, My Love, and the happiness we shared together.

I love you Sepp,
And i miss you so,
I wish you truly did know