I'll manage just fine without your lying ass

Du får inte knacka på min dörr
om du inte är beredd och komma in
du får inte göra om mitt namn
och börja kalla mig för din.
Du får inte vandra på min väg
utan att visa mig ditt mål
och inte stjäla av min godhet
för att fylla upp ditt hål.

Och du får inte riva mina murar
som jag omsorgsfullt har byggt
om du inte skyddar mina drömmar
så att jag kan somna tryggt.

Och du får inte ha mig som en dröm
när jag vill va' din verklighet
du får inte säga att du hoppas
om du inte tror du vet.

Men du får ta den tid du behöver
för att förstå vad det är du vill
du får be en bön att tiden
du behöver räcker till.
Och du får samla dina tankar
så att två själar kan få ro
och så att allting som vi lovade
oss själva kan få gro

Och du får inte andas på min panna
inte få mig falla mer
om du inte sen kan stå för
all den oreda du ger.
Och du får inte röra vid mitt hjärta
som om allt var uppenbart
när jag önskar inget hellre,

Än att du gör allt emot mig snart.

The illusion Of Love

Ha!
they make me laugh,
Talking bout true love as if it was nothing.


Love,
What do they know bout love?

I pity them,
Thinking whatever feeling that comes into them,
is the feeling of Love.

Love,
Kids don't know the true meaning of love.

That's the Love they See on Tv.

Pretty words and "poems" that rhyme.

They All live in a fantasy world,
One day they will wake up,
blink their eyes and see,
That the Vision of life and Love
Was All Just a Lie

Without You

Close your eyes and say good night
and hold me till the morning light
when the sun comes shinning through
I'll kiss you
one last time
and I'll begin to live my life without you
wish that I could make you stay
but I know I have no power to persuade
the heart will do what it must do
So kiss me
one last time
and tell me how to live my life without you
Cause I love you without and ending
cause I need you to be my everything
tell me the meaning of a life without you with me
when the night falls I'll still be standing
cause you'll always be right here in my heart
and in my deepest memories
I will never have to be without you
love is like a work of art
once you feel it you hold it in your heart
you know forever that its true
so kiss me
for always
even if I live my life without you
Cause I love you without and ending
cause I need you to be my everything
tell me the meaning of a life without you with me
when the night falls I'll still be standing
cause you'll always be right here in my heart
and in my deepest memories
I will never have to be without you......................

Pictures from my Trip to Stavanger

I wrap myself in a Blanket of Dreams, Who needs Reality Anyway?

I saw her yesterday.

I've been dreeding this day for almost a week now.

I wanted to cry when i looked into her eyes,
those beautiful brown eyes.

Though she barly could look at me.

She said I looked good and that it was nice to see me.

I don't feel as if I got what I wanted,

her friends kept dragging her away from me.

She talked down on me,
that I could never get a job,
that I should stop drinking my money away.

I haven't been drunk in a long time,
really upsetting to hear her bad mouthing me.

She was so cold,

she said she couldn't stay,that it was too hard for her.
I asked her why,
and she replied that she had to stay emotionless towards me.
just that made it clear to me that she still feels something.

I wanted to cry when she hugged me,
the warmt of her,
the smell of her hair.

I Whispered in her ear that I loved her.
Her eyes were watery when she said goodbye.

That is going to be the last time I will ever see her again in my life....

I will miss you so much sepphire....
and love you till the day that I die

Lady Luck Cut me some fucking slack!

God,

is it even possible?

bad luck upon bad luck.

Typical me isn't it?

Man seriously,
why can't lady luck shine a bit down on me instead of pissing on me? O.o

Missing

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...